Whack a mole: Mentally preparing for ‘plastic surgery’

So…. I’ve had a cyst on the corner of my eye for like 3? 4? years. Even I hadn’t noticed how big it had gotten. Usually I have on big thick glasses. So…you just don’t see it. My doctor did a double take at it and suggested I have it removed before it starts blocking the tear duct. Fair enough. I was sent to a doctor in the ‘big city’…. Horrible selfies to follow. Any idea how hard it is to take one when you can’t see? Ugh. Anyway… here I am, hey at least from below the double chin evaporates, woohoo! So yeah…

So I went in last Friday to have it looked at. They gave me an eye exam, looked at my eyes, numbed them up and did a pressure test, etc.  I hate those things. Anyway, the doctor came in and he’s all like. Oh yeah. Okay. Hey are you attached to THAT? And points at the giant mole on the side of my head. You can see on the left of this photo, as it’s on the right side of my face, right behind the lower part of my glasses. I was like.. umm why? His assistant (a doctor in training at a teaching hospital) made a snip type of motion. I was like umm not really.

To be truthful? I always feel kind of like the wicked witch of every single direction because I’m covered in freckles and moles. Freckles are cute. Moles not so much. This is the SECOND doctor in just a few months to notice this mole and suggest removal. I had commented about it to my GP because it has gotten much.. larger. Floppy. It also (tmi) seems to have a touch of white something, maybe like a dead hair follicle or something that shows out of it. I could take it out but it comes back. So really. Eww. But of course I’m still completely clueless as to why the EYE DOCTOR is talking about moles. It’s like WTF? (pardon me) But it really makes me contemplate at least having the gross one removed since 2 doctors have now suggested it being taken off. I’m not very vain. I basically deal with stuff and not worry about it. I rarely look in the mirror. I rarely use make up. But if I can get rid of the witchy marks will it make me feel a little less… ugly? Because I do feel ugly. There’s no denying it. So maybe I’m secretly vain but too lazy to do anything about it? I took these pics to post before knowing about this whole deal.. it upsets me kind of to post them.. bumps.. ack. But hey, it’s me, and it’s real life. Sometimes you don’t have super smooth skin!

I have them on my arms, too, but the ones on my face are very obvious, including the one between my nose and mouth. Are people staring at it? Not? I scratch at it on accident. Drives me insane because I realize it and stop for fear of hurting it. So as he continues poking around, he makes plans. I’m going to get rid of this thing… and then he starts poking into the fat around my eyes. Have you seen this? Um.. no? Because really they’re HUGE FREAKING SHADOWS. Who wants to look at them? But apparently one of them is puffy. I vaguely recall seeing that at some point and assuming it would go away. You know what they say about assuming something. He poked at that for a long time and then said ‘let me know if that changes’.. alright.  So he tells me to think about the moles on my face basically. It wasn’t until I went to try and change my appointment and the person on the phone said something about botox?!? that I flipped the appointment card over to the front. Did you know they have EYE plastic surgeons? So apparently I’m getting plastic surgery done. It’s going to take a couple of stitches and I will be black and blue for a while. So I’m really contemplating getting the witch marks off. He mentioned he could write them off as a ‘from pregnancy’ type of thing. Not sure if that’s going to fly with the insurance company. But apparently that is a side effect of all those FABULOUS vitamins that you take while pregnant. Your hair gets lustrous and full, and so do your moles. Glorious.

I of course tried to talk about it with my husband. Who has had braces. I of course ^ see smile have not. But I know how getting braces improved his self esteem. The put the brackets on (he was an adult) and didn’t do anything else and he started smiling more, etc. It has literally changed his life. Is this the same thing? Because doctors have mentioned it and I’m already going under the knife anyway….does it make sense to say ‘have at it’.. and have him ‘wipe my filthy muggle face’ for me?  <—- love it when I can use a Harry Potter reference!  My husband has no opinion. He basically said they are a part of me but I’m not sure he would be upset if they were gone. Does this send a bad message to my kids? I have THREE girls. Is it the same as a tummy tuck or face lift? Is it no worse than hair dye? I don’t know. Really, if I didn’t say ‘yes’ right then, I’m not sure what he’ll do. It may be off the table if I didn’t say so before. I guess we’ll see. Either way….

I’ve contacted my GP and we’re good to go with the meds they’ll give me in shot form with breastfeeding, so that’s all taken care of I guess. What about you. Give me your thoughts. If I have it done am I being totally indulgent? Will it send ANY message at all to my kids or are they too young to know and/or care? 5, 2.5, 5 eek! almost 6 months! I’m trying to do a BYOBF type of thing. If it was my best friend what would I say to her? I would say, if they bother you and you’re already being poked at anyway? Have it done! So… I think I’m going to have it done. There’s a chance the spots will still be a bit raised and/or red. Hopefully not in a negative way that requires make up all the time… or could look like a chicken pox scar. Not a bad deal! Thoughts? Opinions? What if it was your face?