In 4 weeks, my oldest will turn 5. I’ll also have a 2 year old and be 33 weeks pregnant. So why don’t I feel like a grown up? Most days I still feel like that inner 13 year old, never quite sure of what’s coming next, and more than willing to just go along for the ride.
I still want to color in coloring books, eat popsicles, and play in the rain. Animals fascinate me (although I don’t want our assorted wildlife in the house, thank you very much)… and I still want a bubbly soda with homemade pizza on Friday nights and a mug of hot chocolate after being out in the chilly air. I yell at ballgames. I support my team, win or lose. Could it be that as ‘grown up’ as I am (we’ve been married for TWELVE years).. I am still just a kid at heart?
Do you have to LOSE that in order to grow up?.. and if so, is it even WORTH IT to grow up?
Don’t get me wrong, I do all the grown up things like pay bills and ignore the cookies the first 10 times I walk into the kitchen. I get up when my husband does and send him off with lunch and coffee. Even though it’s REALLY early in the morning.. and I take the toddler pee in the middle of the night, tuck her back in and kiss her ‘good night’, even if it is 5 a.m…. I’m strict with my kids and do my best to make sure they don’t destroy places when we go somewhere (at this point, behaving only occurs when they’re within my reach, and they can run faster than me right now)…
My dad says he wants to be a cowboy when he grows up. He was born in the 40’s-and apparently hasn’t grown up yet… so.. I guess what I’m saying is.. I don’t feel like a grown up. Do you?