I have a troubled mind. Our local school system (jr high/high school) has been out for a few days due to terror threats. The Oklahoma thing, and all those storms are headed our direction. I’m having some slight medical issues, nothing important at this point, but just enough to be worrisome. I’ve got a 4 year old who talks back and a toddler who is just starting to throw tantrums and a husband that just started a new job. I’m exhausted trying to keep up with ping ponging emotions right now. Some of it I just have to let go. I’m trying to stay busy but have no motivation. The kids will be up soon and I’ll be kept running, but that doesn’t ease my mind. I don’t have any answers, and I don’t suppose that all the answers would be helpful, so I’ll just have to find some good music and crank it up. I’ve already prayed over it all, so that much is done…
What do you do when your mind is troubled?
I cry. It is, in fact, a great stress reliever. First I pray, then I cry. And then I can get on with things. Today is case in point (see my most recent FB post). It may not look like it to people outside my head but I am under a great deal of stress.
My father-in-law has another two weeks in rehab. He’s got a feeding tube and the longer it stays in, the greater chance of infection. He’s pretty frail – it could kill him. My mother-in-law needs 24 hour supervision. We are all taking turns. It’s not hard, but the needed repetition and the vigilence required so that she doesn’t burn down the house are wearing. My brother’s mother-in-law was just diagnosed terminal with cancer. He and his wife are alone in caring for her. Today is the birthday of a dear cousin who died seven years ago in a tragic drowning accident along with her husband during a family reunion. All these things in my mind, plus the torndoes of Oklahoma so near to where I used to live – and my son’s declaration a couple of days ago that he wanted to go live in OK and work at the Severe Storms Laboratory (which is located just south of where the monster went through yesterday). Present concern, past sorrows and future worries all just crashed down on me today. I know how you feel.