1. I hope you’ve made an appointment. No matter what the outcome of that, you need to have the peace of mind of knowing what’s going on.

    As to what I would do if I got the worst news? Like you, I’d pretty much keep doing what I’m doing. I LIKE my life. I like what I do for a living, I like my house, I like where I live (except for summer – if it were summer I might go live in the mountains for a while). I guess my point is, your life is what you make of it and if you don’t like it, you change it – regardless of whether you have another 50 years or another 2 months. And if you like your life, you keep doing whatever you’re doing until it’s over.

    I’ve had a few scares myself. That’s part of why I blog. My son will have a pretty good idea of who I was and what I thought about and who we were as a family because of it. But mostly, I want to leave him a legacy of love. Even if he doesn’t remember much, when he thinks of me he’ll feel warm and loved and happy.

    I’ve already told my husband to be open to love after I’m gone. He’s not the kind of person who does well on his own – he needs someone to love and who will love him and I’m okay with that.

  2. Stacy Wolfmeyer

    When is your appointment?

    If it were my last days, I want to spend them making as many memories as I could with my kids and with Mark. Writing them letters. Taking pictures. Having pictures taken with ME in them. I’m basically absent from their photo history, because I’m always behind the camera. I would line up friends to scrap or at least develop, organize, and give the pictures to the kids and Mark. I would try to get everything in line that I could to make things easier on Mark. He doesn’t have a clue as to where the kids need to be when. Or what they should wear. Or probably even what sizes they wear at the moment. I would talk a LOT to my kids about how I was sick and getting to be with Jesus soon, and how I was sad to be leaving them, but glad to get to be with Him.

    If you haven’t made an appointment yet, please get on that. You’re right, it’s time. And it could still be nothing. Or it could be a little something that has a fix. Or it could be something horrible that does NOT have a fix. But if it was fixable, and you waited to long, that would be the biggest shame. So please please please get this looked into quickly.

    I love you.

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