I just am not ‘in it’ this year. It makes me sad. Everything seems to be a trial. Shopping. Wrapping. (Seriously, double stick tape almost killed me last night–it took about 5 minutes to figure out that I just had to keep unwrapping it until it became sticky on both sides. Matt couldn’t figure it out either. We both have college degrees. Jeez.) I really don’t even have the energy to bake or make stuff, either. I feel like I’ve been hung out to dry with my husband at work so much. I don’t feel like I have ‘time’ for anything. I know it’s all an illusion, I have plenty of time. I’m just tired enough to not want to do anything. So, I’m going to force myself. Clean up time.
We generally do our holiday shopping early, but this year we didn’t. I never really felt like shopping. I still need to finish a couple of gifts and have no idea when I’ll get to it.
Gee, Jill – give yourself a break! You just had a baby, you take care of two little kids all day, you just had to do it ALL by yourself for a week – I get exhausted just thinking about it and you are the one who DID it! Just relax. What gets done gets done and what doesn’t, doesn’t. I decided that that is how my holidays are going to go from now on. No more stressing out or trying to outdo myself or my neighbor or the family members who have more money than I do. It just isn’t worth it. So chill, Jill. And have a MERRY Christmas instead of a harried one.
I hope things improve for you. Can you just set some of the expectations aside and let yourself enjoy all the wonderful things you do for your family? They get your time and care, which matters so much more than the baked goods or lights. I only put out about half of my decorations this year and never even got the net lights on our bushes. WE haven’t baked anything yet. But the kids are enjoying what is out and we’re excited to be together. I’m sure it’s the same at your house. :0)