It’s so peaceful right now. The wind is blowing, it was sprinkling a little bit a few minutes ago, seems like it may have cooled off some. That’s nice. I’m sitting alone (well, you know, with kickypants) on the couch. Matt decided to spend another Sunday watching his friend do autocross (car racing). I opted NOT to go to church today. That doesn’t happen often, but in my condition — and I’m officially claiming a condition at this point– it’s not worth the struggle to get a 2 year old to sit still through church, or get them to leave the nursery when they clearly don’t want to. I’m not up for dragging a kicking and screaming kid out of church. I tried that a few weeks ago and could barely breathe by the time I got to the truck. Add to that fact that the regular nursery person is not there, and it will be HER 90 year old mother doing the caretaking, and well… I don’t think ‘Miss Amy’ should have to deal with it, either.
So you know what I did? Once I got Matt shoved out the door (clearly he was feeling bad with the 2 year old weeping at his exit), the tv turned on to cartoons (hey, you have t o have something in your arsenal on a day like today) — I did a modified version of cowboy church. Usually cowboy church is when you sit outside, commune with nature, say a little prayer, and just enjoy what God has given you. Since we’d already been out to dig potatoes, and the heat index has been in the 110’s– not good– I prayed a little while I washed dishes, then once I knew Keeley was settled, I got out my Bible and read it for a while. I thumbed through where I had cards tucked in, I read wherever my eyes fell, and happened upon this:
Ephesians 2:8-10.”For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God–not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”
Gives me peace in my current role as ‘fetus bearer’ and ‘stay at home mom’. We all have our roles that God set aside for us, no amount of good works can save us, but God’s grace saves us and sets aside works for us to do in our lives (before we’re even born). How amazing is it that no matter how frustrated I may be with things, that as they stand, I am still doing GOOD and the RIGHT THINGS, even if it seems unworthy to the world. More on that another day. Just thinking about God’s grace really gave me peace this morning. So I left the tv on, and started going about things as I saw them, scrubbing a toilet, wiping up the counter, things I feel like I just ‘don’t have energy for’.. the last week or two, I’ve managed to do this morning. I have beef in the crock pot for beef and noodles, a loaf of frozen bread dough out rising, and the bowl and recipe out to have Matt help me make noodles later. I still have plenty on my to-do list, but I am having extreme peace, even with a whiny two year old today.
Did I mention my due date is one calendar month away? August 24th. Also, Keeley is 2.75 year old, or 33 months if you want to get technical about it, today. She’ll be 3 in 3 months. Wow. Also, Christmas is in 5 months. I’m considering just ordering online for both birthday and Christmas. Hide the packages until later. I doubt I’ll feel like doing much shopping with a newborn.
Well, kickypants is rolling pretty hard so I’m going to get up and do a couple more things to slowly tick away at my to-do list. Maybe that will make him/her happy. Hope your weekend was great!